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The one about family!
Once upon a time, I thought that family meant everything. I thought that family would always care. Boy, was I wrong! You see, just because you are blood related to someone, that doesn’t mean they truly have your best interests at heart. It doesn’t mean anything, to be honest. Family dynamics change just like friendship…
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Rough week!
I’m having a hard time putting into words my feelings. I’m angry, Lost, Lonely, Frustrated And just done! I’m not getting any answers. I keep getting sent to new doctors. No one brings up nutrition or mental health. They just keep looking at me like I’m crazy. I’m going to take matters into my own…
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Do you?
Do you hide who you are? Do you stay quiet to not set off the person you love the most? Do you fear the person you shouldn’t fear? If you answered yes to any of these then you are like me. This is something I’ve always done since I was a little girl. I don’t…
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The post with no title!
I read this quote recently, ” and selfishly perhaps, writing helps me regain some of the power that’s been lost to my illness.” This is so true. Writing makes me feel heard when I don’t feel heard by the world around me. Writing makes me not disappear. The one thing I want most is to…
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Finding the words
I’ve been struggling to write lately. I can’t find the words to express anything. I just want to hide and not be seen most of the time. It’s defeating to feel like this but I’m hoping once I start therapy next week, I’ll learn new tools to help. I honestly don’t even know what to…
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Just letting go…
I have a hard time just letting go… I have a hard time just being me… I always think I’m too much for people. Well, I know I’m too much for people! I just want to enjoy life when I can and have fun! I don’t want to take life to seriously all the time.…
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Marriage
Marriage is hard! It’s not the fairy tale that you grow up believing! You don’t fall in love and it stays the same all these years. Marriage is a lot of work and sometimes one person is willing to work more then the other. Throw in chronic illness and well… I know I know I…
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Why?
Why? Is a question I ask alot. I sit here and I get angry and I ask Why? Why am I hearing impaired? Why do I have Hidradenitis Supparivita? Why do I have Lupus SLE? Why do I have panic attacks? Why do I feel so lost and alone? I can literally go on and…
3 boys and me 